Do you ever feel like your mind has a mind of it’s own?
Does it seem like it plays tricks on you, behaving against your higher judgement or desires?
I’ve been suffering from a tricky mind for the last few weeks, but I finally turned the trick around on my wily mind and took control. Here’s what happened.
For the last month, I’ve had a pile of yucky paperwork that has needed doing. I despise paperwork, especially related to taxes and accounting. I would almost rather jump in a pond of icy water than trudge through paperwork, so naturally I’ve been avoiding it.
The only problem with avoiding it is that avoiding causes suffering. Every time I see that stack of untended paperwork, or I think about it, or I see a commercial about taxes, or someone else mentions their taxes, I get a sinking, really bad feeling.
It’s a combination of “I’m a loser, I’m going to jail, I feel overwhelmed, why do I have to suffer this torment?” kind of feeling. This kind of thinking does a number on one’s confidence.
This combo platter of bad feeling has gotten worse the longer I’ve put off this work. And darn it, I’m a coach. I know better. I teach other people about this stuff. But here I am, caught in the avoidance/procrastination trap myself.